So lets just hope that the good vibes continue for me. I just want to get through christmas. I feel the kids deserve me to be at the house on christmas morning, but that is going to make for a very long and stressful day for me. Once christmas is over I still have to make it through my anniversary. I am still trying to figure out how to go about that one. How do you celebrate being together when you can't feel the love OF being together? I don't know, but I sure hope that the new year brings back my old life. I have had a few good days, but I still miss me.
I am moody today, and the kids are coming to open pop pops christmas gifts. I have decided that due to the hormonal problms I think I have entered menopause. Laugh it up, just you wait till it happens to you! I am hot as hell even outside in the snow. I am not sick, I do not get the chils..Just hot and then normal. My cycles have gone to hell as well and I certainly know I am not pregnant! I was always like clockwork which is how we knew when we were pregnant so early on! I am now having cycles of 37-40 days! This is nutts. I keep going from Dr to Dr though and nobody does anything to regulate these hormones. I keep being passed off. The new OB appointment is not able to be done untill January 15! Another two weeks...That sounds like a lifetime when you are depressed.
Randy and I got my grandparents for the annual christmas exchange. We decided that on top of buying them a gift as we were supposed to do we wated to do more. Grandma mentioned to me that they did not even have a tree this year and did not feel very christmasy. Although I can understand and even agree with this statement it also made me feel a little bad. So we took some of the ornaments that the children made bought a tiny tabletop tree, purchased an angel and some garland, and wahlah! Instant easy christmas tree. I hope they enjoy it.
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